6 posts tagged “home”
Well, here's to my first day home home, as in, home at my mom's house with half my things unpacked. I followed my pleasantly normal schedule of going to bed at 3 am and waking up exactly 12 hours later, but I still haven't gotten that summer feeling. It helped a little when I stepped outside to let the dogs go potty, seeing as how the weather was incredibly nice (but incredibly windy).
Oh well. Just gotta get used to it, I guess. (And to make sure I bring home Okami on the Wii with me so that I can play it during the day... muahahaha)
Isn't it weird when you come upon a song that you've known a long time and realize that it kind of suits your life at that moment? Or ...does that even happen to other people? Well, it happens to me. (Though it sucks because sometimes it's only like, parts of the song that fit, and other parts that are like "WTF? No way!")
Nothing deep tonight... I guess I can just update my normal life. It's finally come to finals week of first semester. I have my History test on Tuesday and Japanese on Wednesday, but that's it!! How lucky. I'll be going home Wednesday afternoon, right after my test in fact. I'm gonna shop with me mum.
I'm looking forward to being home, but I hope I don't get tired of it too quickly. Thanks to my new "period-only-every-three-months-birth-control-pill", I don't have to worry about my own PMS, but I do have to worry about my mom's. Though she's never admitted it aloud (to me at least), I think she's just as bad as I am, if not scarier. She certainly doesn't get all weepy like I tend to.
Then again, I got weepy before I took the pill. Now I just get bitchy. Maybe this whole "Dragon" problem is because of my drugs... Hmm...
Anyway, continuing... Christmas is almost here! What the hell! どんだけ~! I still need to buy presents... for some people... oh gosh I am so bad at getting presents... I can't ever figure out what to get... and I take too long... aaagh!! Can't we just all skip the presents and just hang out?! ............. ヤダ・・・それは無理だね・・・・・・
Speaking of Christmas, ... Winter. After Christmas, I am done with Winter. I want Spring to come and frolic about. Alas, here in Huskerland, Winter will last through March as usual. And I already feel the pangs of longing. The gentle warm breeze... the smell of the snow melting... (it smells like llama, did you know this?)
But I can hope! For once, a few years ago, we had a very warm January. I can dream that it would come again...
(but I probably won't be so lucky.)
I guess that's really all for now. I need to work on getting a job. I applied at the school library but they haven't gotten back to me. I need to contact them. Aaaargh.
so, I'm home. safe and sound. and mildly unhappy.
well. I'm happy to be home. really. I've missed my family and the dogs and good food...etc. etc. But I'm very sad to leave my friends behind, even if it is only for three months. But still, after being with them every single day for the past ... 9 months... well. it's weird. really weird. and really sad. I'm really going to miss them. they are my norm.
and, I can't help it but... most of all, I'm really going to miss him. I'm going to miss our late-night conversations. I'm going to miss his smell. His voice. His laughter. it's so corny. but I really can't help it. until these feelings fade, I think it's going to be very sad for me for a while. I really don't want it to be that way. I know I want to be that "strong woman" that my mom always talks about. but I'm going to be sad for a bit. and I think that maybe that's okay. no matter how much the ones I love put him down in order to make me feel better, I can't help what I feel and that's that.
one day I'll be able to look back and not feel so pained, but for now this is who I am. this me, who can still feel his strong hand in mine, and still smell his intoxicating scent right beside me.
(yeah, intoxicating. I couldn't think of a better word.)
I'm sure if I start to think about it, I'm going to miss Betty just as much. she's been my pillar of knowledge and wisdom this past year. I probably would have gone crazy if she wasn't there to support me. in addition, just her herself I'm going to miss - her crazy comments and weird sarcastic humor... everything about her. wow, it sounds like she died, doesn't it?
(at least I have the hope of visiting her soon. banzai Utah!)
well, I better stop here before I start thinking about Kyle and everyone else too. not to mention my anime club friends. I need to try and remember that I will see them next semester... even though it won't be the same since we won't all be living together. I'm really going to miss that.
So, I did my Music final today. That means all I'm left with is Japanese at 10 am on Friday. Which I'm not worried about. In fact, I'm going to see Spiderman 3 at the midnight showing Thursday night/Friday morning. That's how not worried I am.
But until then, I have nothing to do! I can relax! Hooray! But, most of my time is spent relaxing anyway... so...
Mysteriously, I'm still feeling just fine. The only problem I have right now is that I'm hungry. But that's easily solved. Also mysteriously, I have yet to begin my period. Hnn. I had it predicted for Tuesday, so it'll probably start ... tomorrow, maybe tonight. Who knows!
I suppose that's all that's really going on right now. After my final on Friday I'll be heading home. I'm kind of ready now, but it's still sad. All my friends are here. At least I still have a few to keep me company back in Omaha...
So, let's go over this weekend.
Anberlin concert: FREAKING AMAZING OH MY GOD
no seriously. It was so awesome. Kind of scary though... I probably almost died... (yay moshing...?)
Josh definitely went insane. Everytime I managed to find him in the crowd, I just saw him flipping out and dancing around like a maniac. It was hilarious...
But then, at the end, he came over to us and was all "WHO WANTS A HUG?" because... he was amazingly sweaty and disgusting. I mistakenly gave him a hug. Seriously, it looked like someone dumped a large bucket of water on him.
We had a sleepover at my house instead of driving home that night. It was kind of exciting, except Josh fell asleep on the couch. Hahaha. We also took showers...
Saturday: Red & White game was fun... Josh and Kyle were totally crazy ... yelling and all that stuff. And a crazy old lady kept talking to me... she was cute though.
Then we had the Harry Potter tournament at 2! Ruth got stuck at home so John joined our team instead. We got to our House finals (HUFFLEPUFF!!), but lost by two points. Jerks.
After that, I took an hour and a half nap, and then we went to the Bathtub Dogs Spring Show. It was pretty cute, but I think I would have enjoyed it more had I not seen Anberlin the night before.
When we got back, we learned that John, who was participating in a Fight Night on campus, unfortunately got his ass handed to him and was headed to the hospital. It turned out to only be a minor concussion, but we all piled up in the cars and visited him anyway. He came home with us and life was good.
Today, I had my date with sir Alec of my music class. It was pretty fun. He seems like a cool guy, and I think if he asks I'll... probably go with him again.
Then I went shopping with Kyle to get a present for mister Josh, whose birthday is this Wednesday. But, alas, I couldn't find what I wanted (I'm hoping for a DBZ action figure... muahaha). At around 5 Betty, Katya, Josh and I went over a friend's house and had some good Iranian dinner. But that was kind of early, so I'm kind of hungry again...
I guess that pretty much covers it for now. We only have one week of real classes left, and then dead week, and then finals week...... dang. I can't believe it, so close to the end. WHERE HAS MY LIFE GONE?
on a final note, I think I feel more confused than ever about boys. I just want to be told straight out what the hell is going on... Arrrgh!
So, after a treacherous yesterday, I once more feel better. Also, I am going home this weekend, and my mom seems intent on spoiling me rotten. I have a hair appointment on Saturday at 2:15 that I can't wait for, and my mom said that a shopping trip may be in order, along with dinner and possibly a movie. I can't wait!
I'm thinking something along the lines of this:
Hopefully it turns out good. I'll have to pick up some gel, too, because obviously it won't look that cool by me just waking up and going to school. That'd be nice, though.
I'm glad I have Morning Musume and Hello! Project to help keep my mood up. My music has always been like that - capable of swaying my emotions, I mean. I start listening to sad music, then I start getting sad myself. It's kind of annoying at times like that, but otherwise I don't mind, because then I get all hyper-happy listening to H!P, or in a fun rock mood listening to LUCY by Anna Tsuchiya (Love that song~)
Anyway, I guess that's all for now -- other than TOMORROW IS GROUNDHOG DAY! oh snap. he better not see his shadow. I am already sick of this cold weather...I'm ready for blazingly hot summer, honestly...ugh. Why do I still live here? I finally have the opportunity of moving away thrust upon me, and what do I do? Decide that being a Husker is really important to me. And so I have doomed myself at least three and a half more years of freezing hell. Yes, there is always transferring - but I doubt I shall partake. I love Nebraska too much.
Okay, time to watch The Office and then Grey's Anatomy. Hooray!
