Today is 4th of July. People set up fireworks everywhere to celebrate this great day for their country.
My mom got a day off today at home, but we didn't do anything.
We finished our dinner around 7, and started to watch some TV shows.
I can hear the fireworks everywhere, and I tried to take a look at them from the window.
When I saw all the fireworks from my window, I thought about my families at China.
We do that too, during the chinese new year. There are people starts to set up fireworks a week or two before the chinese new year. At the new year's day, kids get woke up by the fireworks about 5~6 in the morning. At that time, I always spend my day with my family. Not only my parents, but also my grandparents, my cousins, my aunts and uncles... We get together, having a huge dinner, watch some TV shows, and when it's get really dark, we'll go set up some fireworks....
Seems like 4th of July is the same as Chinese New Year for Americans. That reminds me how long I haven't been "home" already... It's already 3 years. For the past 3 years, I never had a chance to really enjoy any holidays. My mom would take me to her friends' party for some holidays. But it's not the same. It's not the same at all. I don't know her friends, I know they are chinese, but that doesn't make them my family.... I have some wonderful friends here, but they have their families, and I also wouldn't want leave my mom home by herself to hang out with my friends during some holidays...
I know, at least 4 years from now, I won't have a chance to go back to china during the Chinese new year. But hope someday, someday, I can go back during the new year, and enjoy my holiday again. Also, I wish all my families, especially my dear dear grandma, could be all heathy.
I had a very good day today. The movie was good, the sky was dark (or course), the fireworks were b-e-a-u-tiful, and my friends were lovely.
And something happened made my feelings I have for a guy, or, my feeling I THOUGHT I have for a guy, all went away. Kinda shocking at first, cause, you know, it's hard to admit that you did something wrong, especially to yourself.
I'm glad I got things straighten out before it went too far. I could probably end up really like that guy if I keep telling myself that. However, I woke up when I can still see my true feelings, and that is good.
So, yea, thanks to tonight, and everybody have a lovely day tomorrow. ^^
Friday, when the storm happened, I was on my way home from work. That was the most scary moment in my life. The ice was hitting my car, trees kept falling down to street, I was sitting in my car, no car is moving, which means I can't even get to anywhere. I tried to call my mom, but the signal was off. Everything was just wrong wrong wrong. I was so scared that the next second a tree will fall right down to my car. The sky was so grey, or, just dark, I can't tell. It was only about 5 to 10 minutes, but I felt like it's been forever. I turned on my music to the highest volume, but I still couldn't hear a thing from the radio, all I can hear was the sounds from whatever was hitting my car. The water was so big that I almost fell it was gonna lift my car up.... And I couldn't do a thing, I couldn't think. All I did was just took the drivers wheel as hard as I could, and tried to tell myself, I'll be fine.
I was fine, but my car wasn't. After the storm got smaller, I tried to drive my car to somewhere safe. I wanted to go to my mom's office. The only way I know to get there is the way cross the UNO park. I went that way, fallen trees blocked the way, I had to drive on the grass. However, I got through. When I'm almost at my mom's office, my car broke down. Seems like I gave my engine a task that is too hard to complete. I tried again to call, but the phone still doesn't work. So I had to got out from my car, walked in the "river" that was at least 15 inches deep to get to my mom's office. Finally, I got there OK, but my poor car just stopped in the middle of the road....
About 20 min after that, all the water were gone, the weather looked good again. My mom and I went back to check my car, it still didn't work, and all the towing company were busy at that time. About 15 mins later, my car finally decided to move a little bit. I drove my car to the closest gas station because my mom's car is out of gas. Then the good part came, all the power of the close gas stations were gone, and my mom's car's arrow sigh was below the "empty" bar... When we almost thought we can't even get to home at night, we finally found a little gas station with its power on. That's probably my most excited moment when I saw a gas station...
So, I went home alright at night and left my car at the gas station.
This morning, after we called the Nissan dealer, we decided to try to drive my car to the dealer and fix it. My car was making the weird sound and wouldn't go faster than 20 miles/hr. I was proud of myself of driving that thing from 41th to 114th...
In the afternoon right before I go to work, the dealer called me back and tole me that it will cost $1007 to fix my car! $1007! I can't believe I even went to that stupid temperary job to made that stupid useless $50....
Then I went to my work, it's a 2-6 shift with an extension till 8. My stomach started to hurt a little bit when it was around 5. I was telling myself it's ok, I'll be home in an hour. Finally, when it get to 6, I was hardly to stand, then my manager told me she wants to keep me for the extension shift.... I didn't want to tell her my stomach hurts, because that would totally sounds like a lie. However, it just got worse and worse, I felt I'll almost be fainted away. I had to went to be back room and tried to talk to my manager, and she didn't believe at first, I can tell. However, she let me go home. The second I walked out from her office I started to cry. It was hurting THAT bad. My manager was a little scared and told me take car and then just sent me away. My mom gave me a ride, I didn't realized my tears was rolling down so hard till I saw my mom. She was scared a little bit I think.
I took some pain killer right after I got home but I totally forgot I didn't eat anything for 5 hours and there's nothing in my stomach. Taking pills without having some food first would just make people sick, and it happened to me as well. I started to fell so sick but I can't puke out anything but some water... I was lying on my couch and wondering why can't I just be a guy... = =
I can't really remember what happened after that. I woke up on my couch and I was feeling fine. I guess I was either fainted or fell in asleep. Anyways, now I'm all good. Even though I still need to worry about the $1000 for my car, my stomach is feeling fine.
There are what happened yesterday and today. It's just two days and I feel i've been trough a lot... sigh
I just finished Propose daisakusen today. It's a nice drama, but it made me mad...
The guy and the girl spent 14 years together. They always liked each other, but they never showed their feelings.
The guy waited till the girl was about to get married with another man, and then felt regret about all the time he wasted....
He got some help and went back in time and tried to change things. He did about 10 time trips, but he didn't tell the girl that he likes her even once! If you like her that much, what's so hard about tell her about your true feelings?!
The girl was the same too. She always always liked the guy, and even wrote a love letter. However, for 6 years, she didn't find a chance to give that letter out. EXCUSES! There's always chances.
They were too afraid of the answer, so they never asked each other... After all, they care about themselves the most. They don't want to get hurt, so they'd rather never know the answer. And then, they tell themselves they've tried hard enough...
Sigh, I really don't understand. I never liked anybody for 14 years. But i'm sure if there's someone that I love that much, i'd want to at least try and see if there's anything could happen....
I've been really bored the past few weeks. Nothing was going on in my life. Well, there's still nothing much going on now, but I have to say, I have discovered my new love about a week ago.
I knew Coat West from about a year or two ago. But I never really pay too much attention about it. All I knew was: they have some pretty cute boys.
From about a week ago, I accidently downloaded a video clip with Sho and Hikaru in it. (I didn't even know who was Hikaru...) I have to say, they did a very very good job in it. At that time, I only knew Sho's name, so I did some research about that video, and about Hikaru. I showed that video clip to Markie. So, Markie, you should know what am I talking about here. lol
Anyways, Sho kun, the reason I knew his name was because he's got the face. He is really really cute, even cuter than some Johnny's boys. However, I wasn't really into GV, so all I did just learned this cute boy's name was SHO.
This time, that video clip really shocked me. I mean, that's definitely one of the best H I've ever seen in my life.lol
After that, I went online, read Sho kun's profile, and downloaded a lot of his movies. In his movies, I found Hikaru. Hikaru was the one from that video clip. I didn't get attracted by his look at that first time. However, the more I see him, the more I like him. And now, I like him more than Sho kun or Nagi, even Sho kun & Nagi are really really cute.lol
I love when Hikaru laughs and eats. When he laughs, the whole world gets brighter, when he eats, everything seems so delicious. I don't know why, it's like a magic, he's like a light, a most beautiful light that beauty up everything around him. Also, he's a very very good uke. I tend to like uke more than seme... lol
Then, Nagi. People say Sho kun is the sex god, Hikaru is the Uke Queen, and Nagi is an adorable prince. That's right, Nagi is very adorable, and he's also like a prince. Nagi is the pretty much the same age with Sho kun and Hikaru, but he just look so much more mature somehow. Nagi really wants to be a model. He even got a modeling contract about a year ago. However, Coat West didn't want to lose him. So somehow, the model company found out about the fact that he was staring in GVs, and they canceled their contract with him. Nagi had to go back to Coat West after that...
About Coat West. We can see from that name, it's from Osaka. I hear the boys speak Kensaiben all the time, and I'm super happy about it. This company has some very cute boys, such as Kai, Gen, Shun, Ryu, Taiki, Ryoma, etc. (I learned about them all in 3 days! I'm pretty impressed myself! lol) Also, Coat West release DVDs by series. I personally like "LUXE" series, "ELoS" series, and "Idol Beach" series.
ELoS is short for Edge Life of Story. They put more stories in this series. I'm very impressed by this series, because not many GV has such great stories. Sho kun played in all four movies in this series. The video clip I saw that bought me up to this whole Coat West thing was from the third series, and it's called ELoS Act.3 BURST JUNKIE.
LUXE series released 5 DVDs so far. Hikaru, Sho, and Nagi are the main characters. All the stories are based on their triangle relationship. It's pretty much just Sho and Nagi both like Hikaru, and Hikaru doesn't know how to choose from them. There isn't really a story line in this series. However, I found it's very nice to just see those three cute boys hang out. They did hanabi taikai together, and that was really really cute. ^_^
Idol Beach series is just simply let the boys go to the beach. I love this series because I get to see the true them. They eat, hang out, shopping, and do a lot of fun things in here. Well, cuz Coat West sent them to USA, oginawa, and all those nice places, they need to have some fun! lol However, I don't really like when they're really "doing" their job, because... it's just weird to see them do things like that. last second, they were eating and making jokes, and next second they're... you know... So I always just fast forward when I get to those parts. lol
I also found out that Hikaru has quit this job recently. I don't know how I feel about this. On one hand, he is now my favorite GV guy ever, and I want to know more about him, but on the other hand, these two years must be very hard for him when he's doing a job like this, he can definitely have a better life without this job. He said this to his fans in one of his interview: if you see me on the street, please don't call me... So, I should be happy for him, na. I just hope if one day I can go to japan, see him on the street, I'll put on my best smile and walk away...
Oh, man, this is long. I'll just use some picture to end this.
"Uke Queen" Hikaru:
"Sex GOD" Sho:
"Adorable Prince" Nagi:
LUXE 3:
ELoS 4:
ELoS 3:
let's start with this:
FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
It has to be this year!
I WAS about to go to Japan! I got in to the program, I saved some money, I told my family, friends, everybody. and then I can't go. It's ok, I thought, I can always wait till next year.
BUT STUPID ME! IT WILL NOT BE THE SAME NEXT YEAR!
KinKi Kids are having an AROUND JAPAN TOUR this summer AND fall. Right at the time when I was supposed to be there. I could have the chance to go see KINKI KIDS. and now, ALL GONE.
I don't know what to do now. I just want to yell. I want the whole world knows how much this hurts.
maybe nobody understands how that feels. when I have NOTHING but idols in my life. I don't know what's my life gonna be without loving them. To me, they're my world, my god, my key of life. Sounds stupid, I KNOW, but that's the fact of my life right now.
KinKi Kids is a japanese pop group that has debuted for 11 years. They're turning 30 next year. God knows how much longer Johnny san wanna keep them. Last tour they had was 2003, Fun Fan Forever. It has been 5 years.
Chances are, they won't be another TOUR for another 5 years.
I'm just simply dying after i heard this news. I can feel the pain in every cell, every inch of my skin, my head, my eyes, and my heart.
I was really bored today. Well, I was bored everything lately.
I found some music by these two bands.
I found SID totally on accident. L'Arc~en~Ciel went on Music Fighter couple of years ago, and I downloaded the video clip. In this video clip, it showed a little bit of the Maverick D.C. Concert. SID was playing a song called 紫陽花. I was immediately surprised. It's just an awesome song! I tried to find this song, but I failed. Seems like this song is a little too old. However, I found about four albums from SID. I only listened a couple of their songs so far, but I can tell I like this band. The Vocal's voice is sooo good. The music is not as frighting, too. I'd say it's the kind of rock band that normal people would take pretty well. Therefore, I can see myself having a new favorite band after this summer. lol
Then Dir en Grey. I went to their concert last summer, without knowing them AT ALL. I heard they had their 10 years CD released. They're called DECADE 1998~2002 and DECADE 2003~2007. I wanted this album. You know, since it's 10 year album, it must has all the good songs in these 10 years. However, I can't find the download for this album.... But I found other 5 albums by them, so, I'm good. I downloaded all those albums, and tried to listen to their songs.
I have to say, I was a little scared....I don't know why, but their music reminds me of some pretty bloody scenes. I really wanted to turn off the music, but I didn't. Since I have decided to make myself less girly, this could help me. Now I know how girly I could be... get scared by music... This is not good. I'm soooo tried of being a stupid girly girl. MAN UP is my goal for this summer. So, nice timing, scary Dir en Grey music!
I think i get bored too easily. but i can't help. so, here i am, omaha, home, getting bored!
Tomorrow is my first day working at bath&body works. I hope that goes well. Other than that, there's nothing that I can look forward to this WHOLE summer. It's 3 months! I don't know what should I do with it.
Today my mom told me she might need to go to a conference at Hawaii some time this summer. I'll have the house by my own! Maybe I can throw a party or something. lol
I wanted to wait till kimutaku's Change comes out to do this. But I'm just really bored today. So, here I am. Talking about the Dramas that I am watching this season.
1. Gokusen III
When I first heard about the casting of gokusen, I was surprised. Miura has always been a little boy to me. And now, all in a sudden, he became a one of yankumi's 3D class members. I was worrying about if he can really do this. After I saw the first couple of episode, I know they picked the right person. Miura has grown so much after 14 Old mother and Koizora. Now he's like a real actor.
Then, Takagi Yuya. Yuya is just simply copying Jin. Jin's hair, Jin's clothing style, the way Jin talks, walks, and sings. But weirdly, I don't get bothered too much. He's just a little boy, and he likes Jin a lot. Maybe he will just need to copy somebody before he knows where is his best position.
The story is pretty dumb as usual. However, I'd rather waste my time on this. I mean, as least this drama can keeps me entertained.
2. zettai kareshi
Hayami was my reason of watching this drama. I didn't read the book or anything, and I didn't know about the story.
After I start this drama, the other two person in this show caught my attention.
First, the girl, Saki. I liked her ever since Happy!, but sadly that SP wasn't success enough to become a real drama. Then she appeared in Attention, Please. I have to say, I liked her character even more than Aya's. lol
Then, Mizushima. OMG Mizushima. Now he's definitely one of my favorite actors. He was just "cute" from Ikemen bara, but now, he's HOT in this drama. I like the way he smiles.... (heart). lol
Anyways, this is a pretty nice show. I'd recommend you guys watch it.
3. Around 40
Fujiki is my reason of watching this show. I just love fujiki soooo much! MY TYPE. lol
Well, but the story is pretty good too. It is talking about this 39 years old female doctor, how's still single. I think I will some day become somebody like that. Too old to find somebody loves me, so I have to fight for myself. lol
4. Hokaben
I never really liked Aya's dramas. The reason that I'm watching this one is for the casting other than her. Kitamura, Shige, Ryo, Toda Naho.... I like all of them!
The story is alright though. lol
5. Atsu Hime.
Technically, it is not from this season. But since it's still on, I'll just write about it.
I'm not very good with the Daiga Dorama. It's story is always hard to understand. Sometimes I can't even understand the subtitles. But they're fun to just watch. They way people talk, walk, live...back in the old times is just fun fun fun. Also, Miyazaki Aoi, Eita, and Maki are all in this drama, how often do can you see such nice casting?! lol
7. Osen
I only saw this one for about 5 min. The only reason for me to watch this is Uchi. I hope this drama goes well though. Then Uchi would have a bigger chance to go back to Kanjani 8. ^_^
8. Ryokiteki na Kanojo
Haven't started with this one yet. Since Tsuyoshi is in it, I'd probably see it later though. I saw the Korean movie. But i didn't really like the story. That's way I haven't started with the drama yet. I'll see how it goes. lol
9. LAST FRIENDS
Last Friends is definitely my favorite from this season. This is why I put this at the last one. Both of the story and casting are just awesome! I love every single one of the actors & actress! Even though Ryo is pretty scary in this show, he's still nice to look at. lol
If you can only watch one dramas from this season, last friends should definitely be the one you watch! Seriously!
Random thoughts again.
I finally decided to give up. Things just don't go the way you expect them to go. One thing didn't work for me, I thought it's ok, I can go the other way around. But I didn't realize the other way is not going to where I thought it's going to.
So, I'll just stop on moving. I'll just stay at where I am right now. I'll stop on trying the things that will never work out for me. Today, I'll just say goodbye to the 頑張れの私。以上。
